sometimes i just hate being in love, I think I already have this conotation that every relationship, no matter how strong the two of you are, one day it will end. I may sound a little bitter or over generalizing, but you cant blame me if love is treating you that way.
I have been into relationships. Been to those almost ended up together one but there's always always a big rock hindering the way, stopping you from being together. That no matter how hard you try to push it, it just keeps getting bigger and bigger, the more you try, the more you fall apart. It may sound bad but yes there were times that I regret being with him, I regret meeting him, and sometimes I wish I've never been in that relationship if i knew it will end. well I honestly know from the very beginning that we can never end up together, but Im just to stubborn to believe. I deserve this, all of this. I always say to look things on the brighter side, and everything happens for a reason, but yeah its easier said than done. Now Im eating all that I said, all the things I am advising people. I am good in advising but not in applying it. WHo is? No one. I guess it's best this way, end something up and start a new life, it will be hard at the beginning, but I know I can recover. I have my friends, my family, and Him. I can always find someone who can love me more than he did. I cant force him to be with me when all he's saying is that he doesn't know if he loves me or if he still trusts me. That is stupid I think. But love is stupid sometimes, or most of the times.
I know Im no longer making sense or whatever, but yeah I will make it through, if they can, why cant I?
